#62.

I jinxed it. Ya know that last blog post? I had SUCH a great day that day!! The next day.....mmmmm, total opposite. I woke up early, had breakfast with my mother and was startin' off pretty darn good! Feelin good, feeling awake and ready to go. I checked my emails and found this from the director of the Tango School where I got the internship for back in my 54th blog post (read it here):

Hi Ellyse, 

I'm very, very sorry, but I'm not going to be able to provide you with an internship opportunity for the fall. I have too much going on, and I am going to be out of town too much, to provide a consistent experience. I've thought about it a lot and tried to think of ways to make it work. But it's not the right timing/fit for the school. 

Good luck finding something else.

Cue the instant tears. Seriously. Called my mom over and all I could get out was, "What is this? What does this mean?" But we had to leave because I had scheduled 4 doctor appointments all in one day, only being in town for a short amount of time. I washed my face, threw mascara, concealer, and bronzer in my purse and put my makeup on in the car during sporatic outbursts of tears. Classes start in a week and I suddenly don't have an internship. ON TOP OF THAT, I got 19 warts treated on my feet. To spare you the disgusting details, I have never been in pain like that in my life and I've been getting them treated the last 2 years. This treatment was the worst because they had multiplied from 6 to 19. 

 

Mom gave me Vicodin. Now, I almost considered making that the little thing that absolutely made my day. Because, lemme tell you, I was no longer writhing and yelling (literally) in pain after 10 mins of popping that little baby. But really, the thing that carried me through was my family. With special shout-outs to my mom who is just superwoman and my brother who somehow made me laugh instead of scream once or twice.

I still don't have an internship but that's being figured out and I know it's going to be ok! I'm still in pain but I've got lots of distractions to take my mind off of it (and a few more of those amazing pills)!

To all those who have days that seem like they're from hell, I betcha you can always find that one little thing that really brought you a little bit of happiness. In fact, I know it happened and will happen on every stinkin' bad day you ever have. Will you be open to recognizing it?